I'm not guilty of wanting prestige (or expecting it). In fact, I'm quite the opposite having had modesty and humility drilled into me as a child. Humility is related to humiliation - I suppose that's something we all fear, and I wonder (and can take a guess at) what kind of humiliation my mother must have gone through to make her what she was and yet think it was the way I should be?
And now I have to stumble even more! What I have experienced from my friends has largely consisted of indifference, especially to my writing. Like all would-be or established authors, I reason with my plot (story) and my perpetrators (characters). Sometimes I talk about them if I can find someone to listen. Never once has anyone expressed a desire to read what I'm writing or have written. That saddens me because up to today I thought I was writing for an audience as well as for my own pleasure. The nearest to interest has been a sympathetic nod to the tune of 'let her get on with it - it keeps her busy' or inferring that a plot is unrealistic. But, for instance, last week I saw two scripted reality programmes (connected with that particular criticism) that dealt with two of the themes in my latest book! Wow! But I had already written those parts of the book, so I canot be accused of plagiarism. In my stories I try to deal with elements that could exist on the basis of "what if...?" I am strongly influenced by the fact that no one looks like a child abuser, a murderer, a shop-lifter etc. So my books do not contain much description of looks except when necessary for the story-line.
For the record, my novels up to now bear the titles:
Friends for life
Finch Folly (sometimes Finch's folly)
Bell Tower Blues
Still unwritten but planned are:
Too many cooks
The beachhut murders
In contrast to the irrelevance of titles of abstract paintings, the titles of novels are an important element! The one I am finishing at the moment "Bell Tower Blues" is aln most a semi-abstract title, since the story moves away from the bell tower (returning to it only in reference) and 'blues' are basically a jazz style. But the implications of the blues are bound up in a particular feeling and no longer just a jazz style. The title "Too many cooks" came to me as I was driving through a village in Northern France. The strange name of the village adapted to Huddle Court. In a jiffy it became a mansion and then a school for wayward teenagers. You'll have to read the book to find out more!
The more I write, the more powerful I become as a writer - that does not mean that I am a powerful writer!!! only that a writer develops concrete powers of jurisdiction over what he or she writes and the ability to slip into the role of a character increases. My decision-making becomes more lucid as I go on, although it is said that characters take over. That may be true, but only until they are struck down (by the author) if they become too intrusive or disliked (by the author). Going back over and revising earlier works is proof of all of this. But then, we all either move on or stay still in our own character development. That is really the only choice we have, since we cannot go backwards!
For me, the blank page is like an empty stage, a raw melody, or an unpainted canvas. The most curious part of pursuing these three forms of creativity (activity) is that the instruments are basically the same: the desire for harmony, colour and coherence being the strongest impulses.